I miss my mother more than I have since she died. I long to here her say "Tommy will be fine." For the first time in my life, it is hard to talk to my daughters. They are as worried as I am. I want to be strong for them. I am not doing that great of a job. We all want to know the results of the procedure done on May 31st. Small talk gets on my nerves. I only have one thing on my mind and I refuse to speak those words out loud.
Yesterday Tami,Jake,Logan and Jacy came out to visit and help us get a few things done. It was my first time to meet Jake. He is very nice and will probably never come back to the house. I put him to work almost as soon as he walked in the door. Tami and Jake assembled a futon for me. I thought it would be simple. It turned out to be a two hour job with 40 million assorted screws. Tommy and I would have never gotten this done. Tommy doesn't feel like doing it. He would need my help and I can't get down on the floor or sit low to the ground yet.
I needed an extra bed in the living room slash den area. It looks nice and I am very thankful for Tami and Jake's help and visit. The grand kids moved some mulch for us to different flower beds. Jacy drove our truck. I love her laugh when she drives. I have reduced the amount of bird feeders and flower beds this year. I do not want to take of a lot of flowers or a big garden this year.
One of the things that always happens when the kids come out is music. They are amazing.
We had a good time. In fact, it was the best time we have had in several weeks. Laughter is a good medicine. After everyone left, Tommy and I walked out to the fire pit area. I needed to push mow around all the swings and 'stuff' I wanted in that area. It took probably 30 minutes. Check one more thing off our list. Below is the den and the futon. Yesterday I moved the china cabinet. That is another blog dancing in the back of my mind.